Striving for Perfection

Our blog includes some of the reflections by a talented writer that creates content under the name Olga Lifeisgood. She has been very kind in allowing us to publish some of her most intimate reflections on consciousness and the nature of life.

All this time I’ve been striving to reach for the higher goals and get to the time when it finally will be what I imagine it to be, I missed out on the reality that at first might seem not so vibrant and the now moment.

Fear of pain made me dependent on perfection. Society told me that I need to conform, and perfection has become a carrot and a stick.

The truth is that the beauty cannot be seen without the dark, spring doesn’t come without winter, and I can’t get to happiness without looking at my pain. Whether pain is acknowledged or not, it is still there. It haunts me in everything I do. Yet I am so repelled to recognize that maybe there are some imperfections in the way I live and act. Society idolizes perfection and I punish myself when I cannot reach it, I feel empty when I do. I abandon everything that doesn’t feel good and sometimes I end up being very broken. There is a huge disconnect between the reality I think I live in and what I am brave to acknowledge.

Someone said that the darkness is the absence of light. It calls me so that I can shine the light and transmute it. Otherwise, it will be unknown and will rule my life.

Is it possible that I normalize all of the humanity with its pain and imperfections? Can I accept the struggle and see beauty in everything? Could that lead me to discover true joy?